What do you know? What do you expect?
When I was trying so desperately to get to sleep the other night, I felt a prodding by the Holy Spirit, at least I think it was. I felt God challenging me on what I know, and what I expect about myself. He helped me to see differently the blessings He has given me; the ones which are true certainties that will last me the rest of my life, the ones I take for granted.
Before coming on placement, I was expecting that I would go into schools work after I finish my degree; I expected I would become a teacher. But why did I expect that? I came to this placement naively thinking the only way I could help children in the way I want, by loving and encouraging each child I come into contact with daily, was by becoming a teacher. I expected that was the best way. Maybe it is, but this placement has opened my eyes wider. There are many, many ways to help children in schools in that way. Here at placement I have been involved in planning a self-worth course for school children, and organising a relationship project in schools. I have joined in with a self-image experiment, observed and taken part in assemblies, and I have heard all about different therapeutic self-help courses in schools, one-to-one mentoring, lunch clubs, and lessons. There is so much!
God gives us passions, and loves, and callings. He gives us. God has given us everything we love about ourselves, about others, about creation. Not on a good day, when He reveals that to us, but on a bad day. A day where we feel low, on a tough, horrible day, God has still given those things to us. And do we deserve that? No! Do we expect that? Most of the time, yes! But nothing is ours, all of it is Gods, everything belongs to Him. Even the hairs on our head; they belong to God.
God knows the future. We don't. Will I go into schools work? I don't know. If God presents me with that opportunity, then yes, I would love to. But what, if not? Will He send me abroad? Will He send me into the deepest, darkest places? Will He send me to the rich? The poor? The hungry? The fed? The old? The young? I don't know. God knows. What I do expect, though, is for God to reveal that to me, the amazing plan He has for me, in His time, and in His way. We need to know and remember what is in front of us, and expect God to reveal to us the unknown. God is good, and God is faithful. Always.